You wanna know a question i have been asking myself lately? what am i doing? I am have only really been asking myself that because everyone else has. Here is my answer...I DONT KNOW. Why do i have to know? im sorry if not having an answer bothers people but there it is. Why cant i just live and figure it out on the way? who said there has to be some grand master plan? I dont want to live by a plan, to me that just sounds stressful and not much fun. I mean its not like im blindly coasting through life, i have an ideal of where i want to end up..sorta..but that doesn't even matter. It's my life and i say i dont want a plan, i want to make mistakes, i want to make right decisions, i want to be lost and not worry about it and i want people to stop asking or looking at me like im lost and they feel sorry for me. you know maybe they are the ones that are lost because they feel like they HAVE to have a plan, like without it they wouldnt know which way to turn. I dont need this whole big plan to live and succeed. Truth is I do have a little plan, not one that controls my life to the point where i cant deviate from it but even if i told them that it probably still wouldn't be good enough. I wish people would slow down a little and just enjoy what they do have right now instead of always thinking about what they want in the future or what they could get. God just stop thinking about everything and feel! go skinny dipping, get lost on a back road, be part of a riot, stay out all night and dont go to bed, waste all afternoon finding new music or reconnecting with old music that you use to love but forgot about, do something that scares you and just stop stop stop thinking about if its gonna get you anywhere, burn the plan and the map and just take what life is already giving you and run with it, and if you cant do that...well then just do the rest of us a favor and stop pushing your plan on the rest of us free people who could careless. now that my rant is all over and i feel a little better...im gonna leave you with some music