last night was dancing, attempting to steal pumpkins, laughing until we cried, a lot of make up, even more hairspray and a whole lot of crazy pictures. I love my friends!

oh goodness can you say myspace..i feel the need to answer pointless quesions about myself

-1. Last beverage:peach snapple!

-2. Last phone call: haha my dentist?

-3. Last text message: derek

-4. Last song you listened to: blink 182 all the small things!

-5. Last time you cried: hmmmmm a fw days ago while reading

HAVE YOU EVER:

-6. Dated someone twice: yes?

-7. Been cheated on: not that i know of

-8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no regrets baby

-9. Lost someone special: yes very

-10. Been depressed:haven't we all?

-11. Been drunk and threw up: bleh not fun times

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

-12.Pink

-13. Green

-14. red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

-15. Made a new friend: some really really really good ones

-16. Fallen out of love: nope fallen deeper

-17. Laughed until you cried: haha this happens to me alot

-18. Met someone who changed you: alot even if they dont know it

-19. Found out who your true friends were: hmm iv always known but kinda done with the not so good friends

-20. Found out someone was talking about you: iv never really cared

-21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: haha a few

-22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? all of them

-23. How many kids do you want? lots of Cambodian babies!

-25. Do you want to change your name: my middle name yes, my first name nooo

-26. What did you do for your last birthday?: party and worked..this birthday will be better!

-28. What were you doing at midnight last night?: with Benjamin watching the walking dead!

-29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: MY BIRTHDAY!

-30. Last time you saw your Mother: a lil bit ago son

-31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: ummm id have more time

-33. who was the last person to cheer you up: sarah :)

-34. Who is getting on your nerves now? no one right now

-35. Most visited webpage: Facebook and blogger

-36. Whats your real name: Hayley doesntlikehermiddlename sullivan

-37. Nicknames: ha

-38. Relationship Status?: getting my datin on

-39. Zodiac sign: Scorpio.

-40. Male or female?: Female.

-41. Primary School?: home

-42. Secondary School?: home again!

-43. High school/college?: home! omgosh i will go far

-44. Hair color: At the moment, brownish red.

-45. Long or short: gettin petty long

-46. Height: 5'11"

-47. Do you have a crush on someone?:yes i believe i do

-48: What do you like about yourself?: well i have good taste in music

-49. Piercings: ears and nose

-50: Tattoos: wrist and foot

-51. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :

-52. First surgery: on my foot..painfull

-53. First piercing: Ears.

-54. First best friend: brittany cole

-55. First sport you joined: softball...yeah i know

-56. First vacation: i dont remember

-57. First nightmare: dude

-58. First Love: Benjamin

RIGHT NOW:

-59. Watching: what do you think?

-60. Texting: a few different people, im so popular ;)

-62. Talking: no

-63. Listening to: good charlotte..im in a early 2000's music mood

YOUR FUTURE :

-64. Want kids?: Cambodia!!!!

-65. Get married?: would be nice

-66. Career: im figuring it out

EITHER OR:

-67. Lips or eyes: kinda both...and hands

-68. Hugs or kisses?: both

-69. Shorter or taller: Taller.

-70. Older or Younger: i like'em old and gray

-71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous

-72. Nice stomach or nice arms : how about nice personality

-73. Sensitive or loud: In between.

-74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationships.

HAVE YOU EVER :

-76. Kissed a stranger: welll...

-77. Drank hard liquor: bleh yes

-78. Lost glasses/contacts: nah son

-79. Sex on first date: nope

-80. Broken someone's heart: i really never want to do that

-82. Been arrested: nah

-83. Turned someone down: Yup.

-84. Cried when someone died: Yes.

-85. Fallen for a friend: haha yeah i did

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

-86. Yourself: i do about somehings

-88. Love at first sight: ehhh

-89. Heaven: yes

-90. Santa Claus: duh

-91. Kiss on the first date: yes(does this make me easy?)

-92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

-94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never

-95. Did you sing today? all the time!!

-97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? summer i was 18

-98. The moment you would choose to relive?: :) thats just for me

-99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: i dont think so

-100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?:terrified, im shaking..dumb

ahahaha myspace surveys use to be so fun

this is like rainy bumming around the house day music

im so sorry if im overloading you with amazing music and you just cant handle it..but today was just a music day and i have to share.

These are my if i was lost in a city songs <3










Tegan and sara just take me back to philly to the best time of my life so far







theres more but i dont have time to search for them now

I wonder who reads my blog..if anyone? I dont think im interesting enough to have devoted followers except theres a random couple in Turkey who seems to love it for some odd reason (by the way HI!) and if there are any more followers out there who read my blog...im sorry im not more interesting.


now lets take it back to the 90's!

<3

Oh my word im gonna scream. I swear i have all this pent up energy, i gotta do something to get rid of it, the way i feel right now there is no way im sleeping. now hes some amazing music by an amazing guy

out of work with the whole night ahead of me :) btw i love this guy so much

im so lost right now

i dont even know whats going on with my lately. I feel like everything is good and im ok and its all good and then i have a quiet non-busy day and its like all these feelings and thoughts come rushing at me and i cant run from them. i cant deal with some of them, im just not that person, i dont want to be that person. i want to be content with what i have right now. why do i have to think?

A day of work that never seems to end, but when it finally does im greeted with blue skies, wind(i love windy days) and the possibility of a great day. found new music that i think im going to fall in love with, watched top gun, got a kiss and strawberry milk..it really doesnt take much to make me happy.

This is why i love books so much, if i dont like whats going on..i stop reading or if i love whats going on i can read it until i die. i pretty much have all the control or i can just write my own story. I realize no one knows what im talking about about..but i just wish i could shut the book of my life right now and start a different one, but leave parts of the old one the same

You wanna know a question i have been asking myself lately? what am i doing? I am have only really been asking myself that because everyone else has. Here is my answer...I DONT KNOW. Why do i have to know? im sorry if not having an answer bothers people but there it is. Why cant i just live and figure it out on the way? who said there has to be some grand master plan? I dont want to live by a plan, to me that just sounds stressful and not much fun. I mean its not like im blindly coasting through life, i have an ideal of where i want to end up..sorta..but that doesn't even matter. It's my life and i say i dont want a plan, i want to make mistakes, i want to make right decisions, i want to be lost and not worry about it and i want people to stop asking or looking at me like im lost and they feel sorry for me. you know maybe they are the ones that are lost because they feel like they HAVE to have a plan, like without it they wouldnt know which way to turn. I dont need this whole big plan to live and succeed. Truth is I do have a little plan, not one that controls my life to the point where i cant deviate from it but even if i told them that it probably still wouldn't be good enough. I wish people would slow down a little and just enjoy what they do have right now instead of always thinking about what they want in the future or what they could get. God just stop thinking about everything and feel! go skinny dipping, get lost on a back road, be part of a riot, stay out all night and dont go to bed, waste all afternoon finding new music or reconnecting with old music that you use to love but forgot about, do something that scares you and just stop stop stop thinking about if its gonna get you anywhere, burn the plan and the map and just take what life is already giving you and run with it, and if you cant do that...well then just do the rest of us a favor and stop pushing your plan on the rest of us free people who could careless. now that my rant is all over and i feel a little better...im gonna leave you with some music