Bring it

So this time last year I was living in my adorable pink Apartment in Bport with my roommate Brittany, and let me tell you I loved it. Last summer holds a bunch of memories for me, from drunken waffle night to naked cliff jumping. It was just a summer full of ups and downs, friends laughing and friends crying but it was also my last summer in NY with my friends and I think thats making me miss it so much right now. I'm not saying this summer isnt going to be great because it is but I know im going to miss all the crazy people in my life. Its crazy to think of what has changed in just a year, I no longer live in my pink apartment, I can no longer walk down mainsteet to seawards and get an ice cream or walk to wegmans and eat all the samples every Saturday morning, I can no longer drive 15 minutes to my mom's and have her cook me dinner. Now I have an ice cream truck that delivers ice cream to my apartment every night, My place is no longer pink, instead of going to wegmans I have to settle for food lion and the only time I see my mom is through the computer. Do I miss NY? sure but I also love where I'm at right now and this time next year who knows where I'll be....but I know i'm not afraid of change. So bring on this North Carolina summer so I can make some new friends & new memories here.

My new town

I've fallen in love with my new town

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Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I forget just for a second where I am and how far I've come in just a few short months and I gott say..im pretty damn proud of myself.

I believe

I believe in magic, I believe in love. I believe that your life is what you make of it. I've had bad times and I've had good times. Thats life and out of that good and that bad you get to choose what defines you. That is whats so great about it...you get to choose, you make that choice. So if your life isnt what you wanted then dont blame it on other people, where you end up and how you do it is all up to you. Do not let people push you around, Do not let the world make you hard, Do not let the bad things make you sad forever. This is the only life you get, challenge yourself, push yourself, love as many people as you can, smile until you wrinkle from it. stop over thinking everything. Sometimes you need to just let it go and move on. find out who you are & love it. this is your life, take control and shape it or someone else will...

Done waiting

So I have been a little to busy to keep up posting. so i'll let you know whats been going on. I am moving to new bern NC! which is exciting and scary and I cant wait to see what this new chapter in my life brings. I am sad to leave behind family and friends but I cant let that stop me from making something of myself and discovering new things. I will miss everything and everyone here. its scary leaving everything you know...but if you dont take that leap you never will. you cant wait until you're ready..otherwise you will always be waiting. And I am done waiting.

Forget the crap

Ever feel like you are trapped in a dull repetitive life and you're trying so hard to dig your self out but you keep slipping deeper and deeper? well take a deep breath. Remind yourself that you are alive. This is just a chapter, its never to late & never stop trying. life is worth the fight. I know it doesnt always seem worth it, but remember those lazy mornings, when you wake up and the sun is shining, or those late amazing nights with friends laughing at the dumbest things? thats life and thats what you have to hang on to when all the other crap gets in the way. make a playlist of songs that just take you away, listen to that and just breath. this is your life, if you're not happy then change it. make it amazing because you only have one so MAKE IT COUNT. I know people say its not the simple, im just asking you to remember what its like to be young and happy but dont just live on old stories..keep making them

raging nights

I want raging nights, dark and wild. lit only by the city, bonfires and candles. I want sun-kissed mornings. breezy & free, interrupted only by lovers & friends.