Remember

Remember the days when Tucker and I would sit at the couch staring out the window waiting for you? And as soon as you get home we'd rush to jump on You? How stupid we were, how stupid we were to think that you had the same love for us. How stupid we were to give you all the love we had. We are still stupid because if give anything to wait for you again

I don't enjoy

I don't enjoy this life. I get through it. I wake up and go through all the motions I'm supposed to. I do the things I have to but I enjoy nothing. I can't do this forever...I lost everything. I lost a huge chunk of myself.  I don't feel whole, I don't feel happy. I feel lost and empty and sad and alone. I miss my best friend. There's a hole in me and I don't think it will ever be filled. You do not get lucky enough to to have to soul mates. And I messed mine up..if do anything for my family to be back together. I wish this life would just end