I really have no words.
But if my life was like this...

It would be so Beautiful

I want to be her

You know what made me really happy today? the fact that my car stopped ticking like a bomb and I found my tegan and sara c.d. which I was so intent on listening to that I passed my house and didnt even realize it. Ah the joy of music and driving in a car that is no longer a bomb.

I have no idea what I am doing with my life!

Working over nights has killed my sleeping schedule, atlas it has killed my life. may you rot in hell retail shopping.

Simply put: I need to move to Tuscany. That is all.

I was thinking about last summer and I realized that I did nothing all summer. just wasted my 20Th summer working almost 60 hours a week. I miss a friends graduation because of work, a good friend who is no longer with me but I know is watching all of us. I only went to the beach like once, no drive-ins, no picnics, no concerts,not many pictures. Just worked my summer away. This summer I will go to parties, I will get all dressed up and go dancing, I will walk the beach as much as I can, I will go to concerts, I will drive around in the middle of the night just listening to music with the windows rolled down, I will drink lots of ice tea and pink lemonade, I will laugh and I will cry, I just will live and feel. I will make this summer count. When im 80 years old and I look back on my 20s I hope I have no regrets, I want to get the most out of my life. I want to be able to tell my children and grandchildren stories about who daring i was. I would like to live.